Hey Lord...

I thank you for allowing me to have had these last couple of days to examine me and my life. I know that I have made many mistakes over the years but none have compared to the mistakes I made by not following your words. I have come to the quick realization that home is where my heart is and I think at this point in the game I can't tell where home is because my heart has not found peace and the tranquil I desire. I know every part of me hates where I reside and that has everything to do with the circumstances of my inability to believe that you led me to that place for a reason. I want what every person desires to be happy and free from the burdens that I carry from my past. Not every person is out to hurt me and because I can't recognize trust I can't find that salvation I seek. I ask you God on a daily basis to continue bless me and help me find the strength that I need but is that all I need to do? I pray, give him praise and I ask for your guidance hourly. I am not that strong individual that I pretend to be I'm only human, but you know that. I am a woman first and a mother second. I admit I can't do this anymore Lord that's why I'm writing to you at this hour, I just hope that you can decipher through all of this and give me what I so desire, that inner strength and happiness. Thank you Lord for blessing me, without you I know none of this possible.

Selfish.....

I never in a million years thought I would state that you are selfish. You are a stubborn, selfish, spiteful, and a very negative individual. You have stated you live your life according to God but yet you are so judgmental and I never could understand people like you, thus my reason for not wanting to concern myself any further. God is my juror not you. What I choose to do with my time should not be a factor that you deem a fault.

I honestly believe that you are living under false pretense and yes I failed to recognize your inabilities but believe it or not despite my ways, God is very active in my life. He has presented me with so many signs and I have for the most ignored his words but I won’t and will no longer continue down that path. I need to Love, Live and enjoy my LIFE according to God. I will no longer allow anger and ignorance to hold me hostage. I FOUND MYSELF, and the sooner you look in the mirror and see past your swag than you will be able to appreciate life and what God has in store for you.

Not all women are out to do you wrong, but you will never see that so long as you only see swag. Have a great life and enjoy her……

Distance....

There may be distance between us, 2881 miles to be exact, but I need you to know and understand that my love for has not and will never change. I gave you life, you gave me strength, hope and something to live for. In all the things that I have done in my life my most precious outcome has been your growth and development. I am proud to call you my daughter, my son and my grandson.

I know I have had to endure more than my share of sadness but my sadness never was because of your existence. I love your every being, stay blessed, be focused and know that I may be 2881 miles away but I am never to far to love you...I miss you..

Love to you!

Why be so judgemental.......

You came in and conquered my heart so you thought... I allowed you into my world with the belief that you were different but now I see you for the person that you truly are, sure you were parading around here as if you loved me, but what I believe is that you loved me for all the wrong reasons.

Your swag has your ego so far gone that you can't even recognize that I am hip to your crap. I asked you not to hurt me when we began that quest, but you could not honor my wishes and for that I have to turn and walk away. Sure some may say that I move without thinking but to remain with you will only cause both of us pain. Sure I love and I mis you but I have come to the quick realization that I can no longer be with you and I hope that you take heed to these words and do not regret me for feeling this way.

Your quickness to judge me has consumed my heart with no desire to in your presence. I have repeatedly asked that you not judge me but because you think that you are better versed in the bible I get the sense that you think that gives you the right to pass judgment on my flaws. I laugh at you and all the others that believe that I am not a strong woman and that my issues are not correctable. I am a great woman, I'm just a human being that has/is enduring pain and unfortunately I don't deal with pain the same way you do.....

So you thought....

So you thought I would crumble up and die. You thought my life revolved around you and that you were the best thing to happen to me. What you have displayed over these last couple of months has led me to believe that you think that I was so far gone mentally that it was you that was keeping me sane. I believe part of you wished that I would not be able to function without you.

I treasured parts of our relationship but you made me relinquish those memories as you progressed into the unidentifiable person. You professed to the man for me and that you would never hurt me but yet you set a plan in motion that went on for three consistent months.

Our world as we knew is now coming to and end. I hope that you and I never have bad feelings for one another but just know that where we are today is where we need to be. I wish you the best and hopefully no hard feelings.

Him

August 2010, I saw him (from behind) immediately when I walked into the store, and from the back he was oh so sexy. I glanced at him as I passed but that was it. The day that I am rushing and need to get a quick bite to eat, he walks in. Because I am amazed that I have just encountered another African American in Vegas I do not recognize him at first. But what I did note was that he was not wearing a wedding band which meant possibility.

My kids and I order our food while he is on the phone, don't worry I am still checking him out. I go sit down and he orders his food comes by and speaks to my boys but not once does he open his mouth to me. What does do is sits directly behind me with all those empty seats in this place. I made the that initial contact with him because I am so nosey and I had to ask him a question. I have been talking to him ever since that day, sure I may be infatuated with him because we are in the initial stage of our relationship, and there is no doubt that he has me feeling like a little girl, who wants to be played with.

We have great conversation and that is very important to me. Since I have been away from him these last five days he has made me feel like I am the only woman in the world, by giving me his undivided attention. Just this last week I have concluded that he is more than attractive but that he has an emotional attachement to me. I trust him, feel safe with him and can laugh with him, we have a connection that i don't want to go away. We actually in a round about way talked about who would be the first to say "I love you" first let the record reflect he has already used the word twice while referencing me, so i'm convinced he will be the first one, I told him I bet I could have him saying first. Guess who said as I sit here writing this blog, yep he did. :)

I made a promise to him that so long as he was worthy of my time, I would make him/us a priority and obligation. At this point in the game he has secured a place in my heart and I think he knows that thus the reason he may be working to touch my soul. As I told him the other day I want to thank him for wanting to be that man in my life. My heart is yours papa believe it....

Here's wishing things were different......

We met and you said you wanted to be with me, so I allowed you into my world. Was this a mistake? Should I have waited to get to know you better? Every part of my being wants to be with you but your lack of trust is telling my mind to let you go and face the world alone. Sure we may have had some wonderful moments but at some point in time it has to come to end, so I might as well be the bigger person and do what you can not and move forward without you. I will hold no animosity and I promise to speak with you should we ever encounter each other in the streets.

I wish you the best with your endeavors and know that I harbor no hard feelings, without you I would not have made it this far. Thanks for allowing me the opportunity to meet your acquaintance.

Real Talk.....

Last night I wrapped up my evening with a very special person who stated they were thinkig about me today and did not want to close their eyes without speaking to me..

You say you want me to back up off you with my negativity than explain why you won't let me go? Today, I made attempts to talk you but I don't think you are that person for me. I think we have gone as far as we can as I don't believe we can get over this barrier. Your childish and immature and I will never look at you the same.

I'm ready to love again and you have taking me to be a joke for far too long. I'm about to find someone who is worthy of time and energy. I can't do this crap with you anymore. Good luck with your bullshit....

The decision to hire a black man????

March 2010, the Nevada school district began their search for a new Superintendent; yesterday a decision was made to hire Dwight Jones, former Commissioner of Education, of Colorado. Today’s news topic is “was the decision rushed” I have been following this search and believe that of the three candidates selected (one dropped out to accept a position in Florida) he was qualified and what this state needs, considering that Nevada ranks one of lowest in the country. My question now is: Do the people of Nevada beleive the decision was rushed because he his black?

Lies......

You came into my life when I needed a distraction more than anything. Only problem you never stopped lying, Why? Who am I that you felt it necessary to lie too, why am I special? You never stopped having feelings for your ex but yet you wanted me to believe differently. I said things to you that I had not mentioned to any person before and you took that information to be my weakness.

Sure I had fun with you for all of seven days and then things went to the far left because you were not a strong man in your abilities to keep things real. I may not be the best woman out there but the thing I am positive about is that I am a good woman, one that you will never ever recognize or know because of your inability to see the truth.

One love

Stupidity

Is stupidity your best quality, a characteristic that makes you believe you are a better person? Is it gene that was passed on to you from your parents? I used to think that you were operating or arrogance but you, are STUPID! I can not abide stupid! If you were merely IGNORANT, you could be taught!!

You think with the past you have acquired you would have learned and profited from that experience. I can not believe that a person that claims to be better man than most rejects evidence in favor of beliefs. You are a repeat offender who denies the wisdom of those wiser than self. Your stupidity allows you to be unable to change his or her view point based on logic, reason, evidence, and fact. You are an idiot if you allowed your stupid baby momma to make you go out into the world and write bad checks in order to see your son.

Your Stupidity is that quality that makes me wonder if you are really incapable or grossly inept at change/growth. Your inability to understand or agree with the point of view of others causes a great concern for me. Your actions are starting to confirm for me that your arrogance that has led to your stupidity may not be entirely your fault, but I still claim you to be stupid. But perhaps a better qualifier would be that your ignorance about this situation, yet your attempt to discuss said situation as if you were not ignorant, is stupid.

Floyd Mayweather, Jr.

Why??????? You are idolized by most so why would you go do something as stupid as allegedly beat your ex-girlfriend and steal her cell phone, for real? Sure the media in Las Vegas is probably over dramatizing the events that took place between you and Ms. Josie, but the fact remains that now your mug shot will consume my television all weekend, WHY? You are facing jail time over an EX, seriously??? Freaking Paris Hilton’s arrest was downplayed and will receive less airtime. I understand different situations but you’re a black man, a respected man and now this….Shaking my head…

Mr. Floyd whoever is in your camp that has allowed you to be depicted in this manner by the media needs to be let off of your “money train”. I say this because someone thought it was a good move to record and post your rant about Manny Pacquiao, as well as go to your ex’s house. You might have more money than the State of Nevada’s deficit but to run the risk of losing some of your endorsements, wow….Because of the recent events you should think about reorganizing and do it immediately because someone in your camp does not have your best interest. I personally would have talked you down off of both of those ledges because another individual is not worth the headache that you have drummed up…Sure I may not have all the facts but I know about domestic “unnecessary” situations and this is probably one that could have been easily avoided…..

My prayers...

I contacted you to send my prayers to you and your family. Losing a loved one is not something anyone wishes on the worst enemy. Instead of you thanking me for having you in my thoughts you respond: "I appreciate the concern, but I'm not sure how to take it because you have no concern and had no concern for me or my family when you were putting up your post of you and another man on your FB page, nor were you concerned for me when you had your legs behind your head while you allowed another man to insert his dick in and out of your pussy repeatedly while still being legally married to me, but I'm sorry, your excuse for that is we are seperated. even though I am going through what seems to be an heart breaking moment for me and my family. Like a damn fool I still Love You and want to come home to you even after you so proudly threw up in my face that you are fucking another man. I have not nor have had the desire to fuck another woman other than you my wife. Once again about the Adult Friend Finder thing, had you simply fucked your husband instead of denying your husband sex from his wife, and directing him to seek sex from another instead of the woman who took those with me, then none of that Adult Friend Finder would have come in to play. Yet you still never answered the question of, if I you are not suppose to fuck your husband, then who's place is it to fuck your husband other than you? My Dad is a symbol of how short life really is and why we should not be apart the way we are, but I guess until it hits home for you, then you will never understand that the things that you're allowing to keep us seperated is not worth continuing. Never-the-less I appreciate the thoughts of your should be Father-inlaw," how does a woman take a man back after a words such as these? A simple thank you in someones time of need goes a long way. I've always known how you felt about me but this just soldifies what I have been stating.....

Paris Hilton?????

What is wrong with this scenario Nevada police pulled over Paris Hilton while she was driving and smoking weed and the cocaine fell out of her purse after the arrest but she only faces probation, mind you she has already served jail time, but my ass was fined $1587 for driving with out of state plates?

Am I required to answer my phone for real????

I am not sure why you are up this early calling my phone with your continued bull crap. If I did not know any better I would assume that you are stalking me and have nothing better to do but cause me STRESS. I do believe you are dangling on the retarded side if you wholeheartedly believe that I am by some special law required to answer my phone. I think that you should contact the local authorities and file an official complaint because from this day forward I will never answer that damn phone as long as I see your number or a number I do not recognize, believe it but just know there are penalties for making a mockery of the law....

Here is some food for thought if you really believe that I am teaching my son to have disrespect because he also chooses not to take your call then please contact the Division of Child and Family Services and let them know that my child is in danger of poor parenting skills they can be reached at 702 399-0081.

You need to get over yourself and this quest to make me as miserable as you. Last week you were talking about God like you have a special connections with him but for some reason I do not see but wish you the very best in locating or establishing a relationship with him. Please seek God because you are in need of desperate help.....

Why.....

You constantly text me stating that you want our marriage to work but yet you continue to talk about me on FaceBook "The children are another story within their self. 4 children by 4 different men, which is not really the issue until you look at the men that she loved so much to bare their child, and that's where it gets real tricky. I must first say to P...ete who is her youngest son Pedro's father. I commend you for never losing focus on the most important thing in life, and that's your son Pedro. You are a great father, and I too am a great husband when it comes to Melva even though I did inherit your past problems with my wife. She never had the chance for you two to really close the chapter on you all relationship, because the minute I came along she look at me like I was going to cheat on her like she claimed you did in the past. She also had a real problem with me wanting to have communication with all 4 of her childrens father, which did not make any sense seeing as how I was supposed to be the man that was soon to be her husband. Before you get married to me you are suppose to establish an open line of communication with the child father or mother because that is the right road to go when there are children involved. Children are suppose to see family united and not divided." author Deejay O.C. on or about August 24... I am not real sure how you expect me to believe that you want this marriage to work when you continue to trash me because I won't return to the drama filled world as I know it with you, your lies, your adult friend finder ways, the sex offender status oh yeah and the drunken Juanita that you bought into this relationship. You can depict me as any person you so choose, but to make yourself to be the victim is really getting tiresome. I know your words on FB are your true feelings and not that bullshit you keep texting about loving me and wanting to seek spiritual counsel for someone who wants to put God in their relationship should know first and foremost that attacking me a social network is not any way to mend any relationship.. Take the advice of Mrs. Mitchell and know that you are worth more than this bad person you have made me out to be and please move on. The man in the picture would never disrespect me in the manner that you have in fact should you contact him you will see what type of person is truly is thus the reason he and I are able to remain FRIENDS.

My inner strength...

The problem I had while being with you was not allowing myself to continue to shine. I have always known that I am a strong woman who knows how to be happy, laugh and contribute to others happiness. But while I was in this relationship with you I felt like I was losing it. There was this sadness inside of me. I didn’t have enough energy to smile or react to others, I was just too passive and that passivity was killing me.

For the first time since I left you five weeks ago, I feel like I have actually made decisions that are good for me. It took me a few weeks to find the strength and courage, but once I made that leap, I knew I could never go back. Now, looking back, finding my strength helped me to find balance in my life, and helped everyone else around me. I am strong, at last, because I am almost rid of you.

online dating

This online dating crap has taking on new levels of real assholes, have you ever received a message from someone who might intrigue with there message with words like this:

Wow, incredible profile & you are beautiful actually. I saw your profile and it caused and unusual impact, I am interested in you. You have such a beautiful profile. Have you found your lover? If you are still searching, I had to come back three times to see you. I find your intelligence and beauty very exciting. Your profile drew me in and captivated me. Mine seems so barren compared to yours. I'm looking for someone who wants to take the time to get to know me.

I am ready willing and able to venture forth on a journey that will leave the past behind while preserving the best memories and forgiving the ones that were hurtful and usually unintentional. I live life one day, one hour, one moment at a time. I want and need the healing power of love physically emotionally and spiritually. I live as if time were on fire and I believe that every day of the right relationship should be treated like the first day of our honeymoon.

I want to share what I have with one special person who will appreciate that I have a deep capacity to love that needs to be filled and fulfilled. We can't keep it unless we give it away. I am writing these thoughts as they flow into my head and my sense is that they are coming directly from my heart. I'm feeling very peaceful now and this seems like the appropriate place to stop.

If for some reason we happen not to be right for each other, I wish you the best in your search. I wish you continued passion and an exciting lover to keep your fires burning. I appreciate and admire your intensity. I hope to hear from you soon. But then they ask do you have yahoo messenger, and you seem intrigued enough to respond by providing them with another avenue to reach you and when you log on the person is wearing no clothes yuck… Whose idea was to vreate this online dating non-sense....

Patience.....

I have tried to be that patient person, not sure why I should have patience when you acted like it was a big deal just to walk me through something on the computer. Do you remember how you ask me took for something and when I would state that it is not there, but you believed I was not understanding your words so you ask me to read the list of icons and when I read them to you, you state isn't that what I said in your rudest voice ever,no it isn't. The sad part about it is that you are ver patient when you speak to any woman. I never understood why I was treated so unfair.

Time to reflect....

Now that I am alone and have the ample time to allow my anger to subside and had time to reflect on my actions in the past, I have come to realize that I have to apologize to those that read my comments on Facebook and have had to ask God repeatedly to forgive me. I can not believe that I have allowed him to take me out of my comfort zone. As I have sat these last couple of days and pondered about how badly I handled our situation. I think about my actions and most of the time I feel bad, I used the word most because I also remember the words you used to hurt me.

I know that from this experience has taught me that no one person should take me out of my element. All I wanted you to know was how I was feeling. I kept trying to talk to you but you would not listen. When those tears fell from my eyes they were not fake they arrived out of the pain I had inside of me. I wanted you to know that I was hurting and it was your job to make my pain go away. I know what I am about to say next is very silly but there were many times when I kept thinking about us and what you meant to me. I would think about these things and I realized they go hand in hand. Our relationship was supposed to be my future, it was what I wanted. I wanted to grow old with you. I wanted to experience crazy love forever and ever. I wanted us to walk through new houses picking the one that would be just right for us. I wanted you to see me walk around our house in a beautiful dress and catch you staring at how gorgeous I am. I wanted to pull the covers off you at night and then have you get closer, to keep us warm. I wanted to see you laugh like crazy at me when I did stupid stuff. I wanted to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set, and I wanted all the people who passed us to envy the love that we obviously have for each other.

I wanted to sit and talk to you for hours about nothing at all but in the same time everything or maybe we won't talk at all and just grin at each other realizing how lucky we are. I wanted to take trips with you to places we've never been and experience them together. I want us to go skinny-dipping in a hotel pool and get caught and streak back to our hotel room waking everyone up because we're laughing so hard. I wanted our friends to come over and get totally jealous because they didn't share a love like we could have. I wanted us to run outside in the rain and act like total kids getting completely soaked, and when we came back in stripping down to nothing as we stumble into the bedroom, or the kitchen counter, or the balcony, or the couch, or an office desk, or the shower, which ever one we felt like at the time.

I wanted to take your breath away every time I said, "I love you" because you know it's coming from the heart. I wanted to sit down with a box of strawberries, a bottle of chocolate syrup, and a thing of mint chocolate ice cream...... well, I'll let your imagination finish that one. I wanted to love you and be with you for at least forever if not a little longer. I couldn't really express in words what I'm feeling right now so I decided to share with you SOME of the images and thoughts that have been running through my head. I just wanted you to know that I had never found someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with until I met you. Was I really crazy about you, or fascinated with being love and wanting someone to love me back.

Whatelse is left....

We have gone our seperate ways and all we had was the internet. What you did was get yourself blocked from my world. Eventually you will find yourself unable to send me emails. I tried to tell you numerous times that I never ment to hurt you all I wanted to do was put as much space between us, so that you are granted what you had been asking me and others for, for months. You wnated me gone so I left.

You tried to post comments about me on your Facebook account and tried desperately to make me believe that you were only hurting and that those words were not your true feelings.. But the sad part is you had called me those words many times in the past so it was really hard to make one understand that you felt any different.

I wanted to embrace you this week and I almost brought you a meal but the true kept sending me emails and comments that I had as much hatred in the deliverance that I knew I would be dealing with that same mean-spirited person as I had been dealing with while living with you.

I am sorry and I wish you nothing but the best. I know you are attempting to find someone if you have not and I hope all works out for you. You don't deserve this and happiness will soon be upon yu that I will only be a matter of fact.

Take care and stay focused....

The internet....

Why is that Match.com can find you a husband but on the websites designed for persons of color such as Blackplanet the majority of the men are dogs, who want to see tits and ass. Why is it a breeding ground for sexual predators/offenders and whores. Why not call it what it is? I am so sick of this internet crap, what happened to encountering people with true intentions

a cheating man is a lying man.....

We met and fell in love everyone said we shouldn't get married but we did. What a relationship. He wanted control and power and she wanted love and affection. He was n't the man to give her the love and affection she so desired and she wasn't the woman to allow him the power and control that he needed to stroke his ego. His pride and arrogance is what kept him from loving her, ut it was her personalities that kept her grounded. He tried unsuccessfully to break her spirit and isolate her from the world.

Three years and alot of turmoil later she gained the strength she need to leave his but before leaving him, he had the audacity to have another bitch call her home. Yes the two of them discussed the love they had for each other and it cut her deeply, if ther was any chance of taking another stabbed at their marriage it was completely dissolved after that telephone call. She never ment to cause him any pain or heartache and she damn sure didn't expect him to be the janitor that he claims he by cleaning up the mess that she left behind, but truth be told he made his bed and now he has to lie in it. It is a kingsize bed so he has a lot he needs to work through....

I thought we were half sisters.....

why is that family is the first one to talk shit about you and then call you a hater? I would be the one who is in the wrong if I put the bitches business out there in the same manner that she has done with me. We are supposed to be sisters but for some reason you keep thinking I am an enemy and that I have time to interject my cares into your daily life by calling you. I am sorry what would be the purpose of my call we have nothing in common and the fact that you keep running your mouth about shit you have know clue about is enough for me to leave your ass alone.

I can't wait for this dude to hurt you in the same manner that your previous boyfriend did, he is no different accept his name and emplyment status that is all. He is a womanizer and you are the last person to see this fool for what he is because you need a man to validate you. You are a weak individual and he sees that and is taking advantage of you. If you think I am bullshitting check his computer cookies and view the sites he has been on. Sure babe you might be with him in New Orleans but when he gets back to Boston it will be you, him and HERS..... Drink to that.....You let him start this bullshit now I am going to finish it......

Vegas is beautiful....

but it is not a place for a woman who seeks to divorce her husband. There are so many road blocks that have been put in place for women who seek a divorce. The free legal aid attorneys only practice limited family law/divorce proceedings, it's either you practice or you don't.

When abuse is involved whether physical or emotional the landlords do not care so long as their rent is paid. So if one wants to break a lease in order to save themself or remove themself from the situation all they can do is suggest that you leave and hope that the other party continues with the rental obligation, if they do not you are still responsible for the rent. So not only is one left trying to establish themself in a life but now they have to worry about their credit, you think since everything revolves around your credit one would want to ensure that their credit score is not impacted by non-sense, the question then becomes stay or go.

Why did I choose Vegas again?

weekend bliss.....

What a way to spend the weekend watching cartoons, eating oodles of noodles, making a homemade pound cake, having spam and eggs for breakfast about to make my first frappuchino the ultimate, but I'm not a coffee drinker but I seem to desperately want one, why?

I am looking for a...

I am looking for a job, a new outlook on life, for some positivity and my blessings.

Reality.......

So I am back from my extended birthday celebration....at home watching the tube and I stumble upon Kourtney & Khloe take Miami. I like them but can I start by asking how, when, where & why does society believe we as consumers have the need to be so heavily involved in the lives of a celebrity. Hell I believe I am a celebrity in my own right, can I get a show? I have done the stupid shit that they are grossly over paid for, hell when I was 20 I used Nair hair removal on parts unknown let's just say I will never use Nair again.

My question is why am I paying for a television subscription (DishTv) only to be subjected to REALITY BULLSHIT. Is it me or is the desert heat really starting to effect the choices I make?

A birthday celebration in Las Vegas.....

I took the week off to celebrate my birthday on the Vegas strip. I started out at a bikini bullriding contest no I wa not a participant, I had dinner at Red Lobster (my favorite is those damn cheddar biscuits)I had the lobster and shrimp meal (I am still convinced that Lobsters are just roaches I think I am done eating them, I had the best rocky road ice cream ever (Ghiradelli ice cream is way better than the other guys and a lot cheaper too, I had some yummy mango mai tai drinks what the hell is in those mai tai, talk about delicious.

I took in a couple of shows, the comedian was Kevin Burke not bad, the Rat Pack, these entertainers looked nothing like the originals, but they were entertaining, had a massage, I also had some deep fried oreos and twinkies (not good for the heart) did some gambling won some/lost some, great food, plenty of music and will end the festivities with a magic show.

I wish I could post pictures of my celebration because only in Vegas does one get to witness the owner of Virgin airlines jetski around the Bellagio, see Michael Jackson and Rick James roam the streets together, how about those Kiss impersonators and those funky boots they are wearing.

To sum up my birthday celebration I had a wonderful time in Vegas.

Reality TV Kendra.....

Kendra known as Hef's former girlfriend. Why does she have a tv series again? I watched a couple of her episodes again because nothing was on the 400 channels I have but repeats and more reality tv shows than cartoons.

So I am watching Kendra and she is so uneducated that it is not even funny. At first I thought it was just me but I was so wrong. How did she end up with Hank?

I guess what they say about blonds is true, because she is not only blond but she is a stupid young girl with money and is allowed to consume our tv airtime why?

Everyday....

Everyday I sit hope that today is the day that we go our seperate ways. I hope that I am able to laugh just because my heart is filled with happiness instead the sadness that has consumed me. I hope that I am lucky enough to encounter my knight in shining armor. I hope that I am able to complete the necessary changes in my book so that I am able to get published.

Everyday I sit in wonder why is it that I am not as strong as the woman next me. I sit and wonder what it would be like to be free of you. I sit and wonder what is going on in Boston. I sit and wonder why am I here. I sit and wonder what God has planned for me next.

I say to my God thank you for blessing me, by keeping me safe, warm and happy. But today I can not thank him for keeping me happy because I am miserable beyond belief.

So all that I ask is for everyday to have the strength to go on.

Stupidity may have been the reason...

That allowed you to enter my life, that allowed me to fall for the words that came out of your mouth, that allowed me to believe in your thoughts, that led me to the alter.

But Stupidity will no longer consume my life, I am awake and can see you for what you really are a bullshit man, an arrogrant asshole with no concept of reality, a lazy motherfucker who loves to blame others for the integrity he lacks, a mouthy dude with no real understanding of the words that come out of his mouth, an egotistical man with no real direction. How did I allow myself to be consumed by your energy, there is no compatibility between us.

You claim you are strong, but I am stronger, you claim you are smart, but I am smarter, and you claim that you fathered two boys, but I am an active parent. The difference between you and I are facts you are searcing for yourself in other people, I know who I am and do not need anyone to validate my status.

Toddlers & Tiaras....Why?

With all the television channels I have why was I drawn into Toddlers & Tiaras. The episode that I happen to watch featured a male pageant diva, what the hell are these parents thinking, why???????

This little boy name Zander took being in the pageant more serious than the little girls that participated. But the freaking mothers are a mess! His mom allows him to wear clear lip gloss and paints his nails lime green. Is she serious? she as another son who has absolutely no desire to be in pageants but her hope is that as he gets older he will be able to be the protector of Zander. Can one say psychological damage!

Do these people realize what they are doing to their children? They're women exploiting their children sexually if you will, for the possibility of winning money. They are spending ridiculous amounts of money Lexie's mom (also featured in this episode)stated they spend on an average of $10,000 per year to be in a pageant, all of this and their is no thought of how a parent might cause psychological harm to their child in the future because of the personal flaws these women are going through, fat women with self-esteem issues. Wow!

TORN...........................

The last couple of days have been hard for me part of me wants to go back to Boston desperately, but then there is that part of me that wants to reside in Vegas. I have never been this torn in my life. What to do, what to do?

When a woman's fed up...

R. Kelly said it best...

Clearly, you do not know what R. Kelly is singing about. I am done with you I am being cordial towards you because should I be any other way will block my blessings.

You want to talk I'm not interested any longer. I tried to oblige and provide you with insight that you did not have to seek on the internet but you did what you do best try to over talk me and I am not interested in your feelings or your thoughts.

when did I get cankles...

So I decided I wanted to walk on the hottest day thus far in Las Vegas 110 degrees and boy did I quickly realize that a fat girl and the heat do not make for a good situation.

Ever since my children left I decided I would walk to seek relief from some of this stress and while attempting to have some quality time alone would loose a little bit of this swollen stuff that encapsulates my bones, some may refer to the swollen stuff as fat.

Once I got out bed late in the day I took a cool shower drank plenty of water and then put a water bottle in the freezer so that I could take it with me on my walk. I go back upstairs to prepare mentally for this walk, because on this day I had planned to walk a total of 6.4 miles.

Now I am ready to go on this walk. I go to put my ankle weights on only to realize that because my ANKLES are morbidly obese commonly referred to as CANKLES I am unable to wrap the freaking’ weight around my ankle and because I am determined to use these weights I wrap them around my arms. Frustrated with my cankles I lose sight of everything else. I am preparing to leave, I am getting my IPod together and my coach front pack I place everything into and prepare to leave. I am half into this walk before I realize I have left my water bottle, damn, but I am not going back because I thought I was hydrated enough to make it to my destination and thought I would purchase some water at the store.

As I am walking, there is a breeze so I think nothing of it and continue to walk. I take off the weights and then wrap them around my front pack after walking a few blocks (since there really isn’t that many paved sidewalks in my path I am going refer to those blocks as sand corners, because my hands are starting to get real heavy.

I am still hanging in there walking with a goal in mind except the heat from the sun reflecting on my body was not on the same page. I started talking to myself over the reggae music that was blaring through my earplugs. I had to stop immediately; I was a fat girl roasting in the desert heat. I could see my arms getting darker, shit I was being cooked. I had to stop 30 minutes into the walk (1.3 miles). I called the guy that resides in my house and asked him to come get me. Upon my arrival home I turn on the television only to learn that there is an excessive heat warning in effect at 4:32p, what the hell, no wonder I was literally cooking.

I don’t understand how my fatness is going to make it in Vegas. If I walk out in this triple digit weather it is guaranteed that I at some point the desert animals will be able to feast on my remains. I guess for this summer I am going to have be content with all the swollen stuff that encapsulates my bones.

still trying to figure out what I am doing..

I'm preparing to leave your ass. I'm preparing for a future that does not include you. I know you thought it was just me talking and sure I gave you a timeline, but things changed and I need to act immediately because I can't stand the sight of you. It is very disturbing to learn that you are ear hustlin' what is the point, I will tell you what you want to know, because I believe you should have the whole truths instead of what you may assume.

You are very versed in the reason why I no longer opt to speak with you. But if you need a refresher that baby momma of yours has no boundaries when it comes to me because you have never establsihed them for some reason you think it is ok for that broad to say what she feels and dictate how you should perform in this house, you seem to have me confused with her. You have feelings for her that you won't admit to but your actions towards me project something different.

Then there is your constant reporting to your sisters as if they are coming to Nevada to whoop my ass or something, not sure how you have me confused with a woman who gives a fuck, that shit isn't going to happen anyway and we both know that but I guess it is ok to dream.

To be honest it is pointless for me to continue with you, I don't hate you but that feeling of you being my husband makes me sick to my stomach. I need to be free of your bullshit ways, and your inability to fullfil my days and nights with passion and meaningful moments.

Stop pretending we are a couple on Facebook., you don't need to get me anything or do anything for me, the only thing you can do is sign tis affidavit to release me from this lease. So if want me to speak to you sign and we can carry on as if nothing every happened, until keep up man.

Next step Family Court...

Still thinking I am not going to leave your black ass? Well the joke is on you and I am leaving with what I came with baby, almost everything in this house.
I’m no longer fazed by your manipulation. Remember I am the chick you held back with your bullshit stories and I feel good about my decision to leave your trifling ass. I have a new smile on my face because I am getting rid of my dead weight all 200 lbs of you.

I hear you telling your family and friends that things are not that bad that we can’t work it out but I think somewhere in there you have me confused with a woman who gives a f ck about making this marriage work. I am done putting forth an effort into a nigga like you.

Have a blessed day dude. I will see you when I return from the Family Law Class.

Missing my HEART & SOUL....

I missing my two boys one is my heart and the other is my soul....

My spirit....

My spirit and faith in God is stronger than the hate you have for me. You have tried to make me respond to you ignorance by threatening to lock the doors, by advising me to find another place, but you can't break me or my spirit. I'm stronger than you both mentally and emotionally.

I have a better chance of surviving this non-sense than you. Without the help of a woman you will not be able to make it in this society. You have nothing to offer a woman but sex, all women need more than that, oh I'm sorry your baby momma can live with you and the fact that you will never measure up to the standards of a child never mind a man. But she is small minded and adapts better than I ever will. She lives her life by what she accomplised materially (is that a word) you wouldn't know because you are uneducated, sure you can hold a conversation but not long because your vocabulary is not extensive "know what i'm saying" no I don't and I honestly believe you don't either that is why that is your favorite saying, your words not mine, or once realize you can't hang with the conversation you start using profanity.

I feel sorry for you and the mind that has you bound. Sure I may have issues but your issues out weigh my flaws by far. You are a jealous man, who suffers from low self-esteem, your depressed, and you look to others for validation when in fact you should not seek validation from anyone but you.

I wish you well in your current endeavors, if you haven't learned anything than let me tell you this, No one should be the reason YOU are not able to move forward in life. Stop blaming others because you are not able to meet your responsibilities in life and stop allowing people to hinder you.

I have accepted..

that you will always love her no matter what. She was there for you for 8 years, she tolerated things I would never imagine, she loved you so much she gave you a child, she allowed you to be mouthy arrogrant, and lazy, she put up with the way you treated her, she put up with your cheating ways, she fed you before feeding her child, she had sex with you while having sex with another man, she basically allowed you to take her self-esteem from her. You may have had thought you were over her and wanted better for yourself when we met but now it is so obvious that your heart, soul and energy will only be with her because she allowed you to believe that they you treated her is the a man should treat a lady, well Iam not her and will never ever question my esteem or live my life believing that you are the man for me or that this relationship has brought me happiness........

I have accepted that you long to be with her now please accept these divorce papers....

Baby momma's

What the fuck is wrong with you bitches today? You claim the nigga ain't no good but yet you befriend him on Facebook and play the innuendo games. Please keep in mind I am not you I made it past high school so I can decipher (oh in case that is a big word) understand the games you are playing the only problem is you're playing them with that bitch who may gut your ass.

Oh I tried to be that wife and allow your GHETTO Stupid ass to call my house to allow your child to talk to his dad. But it irks my soul to hear your voice, he changed his cell phone number and if you don't have it I suggest that you obtain it from him via Facebook and opt not to call my house.

I have had enough of you and that fucking weave, you beast and his nasty ass..Nigga's and bitches don't understand. I have exhausted my patients and shit is going to get real ugly for YOU.

I am sorry to have offended you. But this BITCH and this Nigga just don't have a clue. They are taking me out my character and its time to show niggas how to play the game for real...

Honoring Our Veterans today...

?Thank you grandma, uncle and dad. Thank you to all that serve so that I am able to enjoy life.

Are you to old to be fighting?

Why is it?

Why is it that you don't understand what I am trying to achieve?

Janet Jackson is sporting a new hairdo or is she?

The last couple of days media has been talking about Janet Jackson's new hairdo...Newsflash all she did was take the weave out!

Common and Serena....

Rumors are they have broken up...Have they? I HOPE So....Common I'm ready to be there for you, I can help you forget about her... She was too young for you any way...Let's have some mature fun.....

Gambling....

I think I need an intervention someone please help me.......

Child support...$20

Can someone please make me understand how a judge can order a man to make a $20 a month child support payment? What is a woman to do with that? Does he not realize that a loaf of bread, a gallon of milk and a half dozen eggs total more than $20?

Politics in Nevada?

Why are the Politicians in Nevada all corrupt?

Thank you God...

Thank you God for keeping me safe, warm and happy. Thank you God for allowing me to see the things that are right in front of me. Thank you God for blessing me. Thank you God for another day.

Thank you God!

Old Navy....

Can you say $1 Flip Flops....Well I can and that is where I am going when Old Navy opens in three hours. My poor husband....

Happy Birthday Gemini!

Happy Birthday to all my fellow Geminis...Oh what a month this shall be for me....

Why am I....

Why am I the only twenty something that does not know how to effectively use my freakin touch telephone? Can someone please help me!

“By any means Necessary,” Malcolm X, what do you know about that?

“By any means Necessary” Do you even know what that means?

Malcolm X had the ability to gather crowds and his actions very controversy, which made him a target by the FBI. He was very intelligent and articulate man. To all my young people who does not have a clue do not let the legacy of Malcolm X die. Please go out and learn and grasp the understanding of what this man believed in.

At one point in my life my friends and family referred to me as Malcolm X. Let's not get it twisted the Malcolm in me has not faded; I've just embraced the phase that Malcolm was entering just before he was silenced.

Happy Birthday to the greatest man ever! Malcolm X May 19, 1925....

Fathers....

When two parents opt to end their relationship and there are children involved and the mother is granted full custody of the child and opts to leave the state is that considered kidnapping?

Is it me or is it safe to assume that all obese women first letter begins with M and end with A?

I was watching women 58 through 70 who have had babies late in life for some it was the first child...Why? The sad part about it was these women looked absolutely stunning for their age and made caring for a baby look so easy. These women planned the birth of their babies and were doing all things possible to maintain a healthy life.

Speaking of healthy I then watched a segment of Clinically Obese women having babies. My questions is why do all of the obese women's first letter in their name start with the letter M and end with the letter A? For Example Melva, she is obese....

finally finished editing my book!

Now that I have finished editing my book, I am now ready to submit it for publishing any suggestions? Also, I have begun writing a new book so far I have completed 40 pages.

Sexy Just Wright...

My husband and I went to see Just Wright, what a great movie. That damn Common is so damn good looking with his sexy-ass freckles, yummy. I could not even eat my popcorn for glaring at him so freaking hard..Yes, I had an orgasm while watching him..I am so ready to see it again.

The only thing about going to the movies with my husband is he so afraid to sneak into another movie, that is the whole point of going to the movies so I thought! What is wrong with him? That's what I get for marrying an older man.. He is 15 years older than me. You do the math if I am going on 25 in a month, then how old would that make him?

Celtics..................

Must say I am not much of a sports fan. But I am homesick so watching the Celtics play leaves me with a sense of being at home. Way to go to Celtics.... Bring on the Lakers!

Where is D.S.S when you need them?

It is the saddest thing ever to watch elementary school age children forced to walk to and from school without adult supervision. I totally get the whole notion that parents have to work to support their family, but who is responsible for the children, who are home alone and must get themselves ready? The kids i'm referencing are on or about 7 & 8 years old.

Do you really believe these children are responsible enough to handle this task? My answer would be NO, everyday I watch these children cross the streets, without looking, riding their bikes or scooters without any concern for the cars or other children. Where is the Department of Social Services when you need them? Sure there are crossing guards but they are only certain sections of the streets. The state of Nevada is killing me with what is considered priority.....

Ever since...

Ever since the Rhino Pest guy knocked on my door on Monday to discuss his services, my thoughts night and day have been consumed with creepy crawlers. My dreams have been consumed with thoughts of black widow & brown recluse spiders, the flying cockroach, black ants (which by the way already came by for a visit) earwigs, silverfish, crickets and scorpions, crawling up my legs, sitting next to me on the couch, greeting me when I open the pantry, and they even have me checking the car before I get into it. Sure I have been hoping to see a scorpion but not as a tenant. What the hell have I got myself into out here in Vegas. I now have to research species that I thought only existed in books. Why?

I'm not sure if paranoia has kicked in, but something is going on with me mentally and Becky is not the root of it either for those of you that know me, she is scared of the bugs too. Please pray for me in hopes that I make it through the summer with these bugs, spiders and whatever else. Who knew the desert was such a breeding ground......OH LORD!!!

Whose bright idea was it?

To see to it that women had equal rights....I'm tired of equally paying bills!

looking for something!

I hate more than anything to go look for something only to find it is not there. The sad part about it is I know where I left it but some how it grew legs, got up and walked away, at least that is what the people in my house expects me to believe.

Can you please help me look for my red folder?

you are selfish...

you are selfish, self-loathing, ignorant and mean-spirited individual. I can not understand why you are so hateful. Did something happen to you in your childhood, are you angry, can we talk about your problem? I think something is going on inside you as it is very evident that something is wrong.

Don't you hate it when someone thinks they have all the answers to what is wrong with you?

What a Day What a Day!

Ever had that day when you felt like whoa?

You look a mess!

Fake women with fake hair WEAVES! What are you ashamed of the hair that God gave you or has society led you to believe that the hair and the texture you have is not good enough? You're paying money to look a mess, do you not see how consumed you are with looking a mess, better yet were you outraged when Chris Rock made a documentary/film about Good Hair? If you were not you should have been...

I am so sick to death at lookling at so many women sport these weaves and laced wigs. I understand as individuals you have the right to do as you please, but when getting your tracks comes before taking care of your responsibilities or your child looks like who knows what, that is a problem and you probably do not see as a problem because of the chemicals in the glue used to hold the laced wig or tracks in place.

Stop using Facebook to check the next one with a bad weave because yours is just a bad......

I wrote about it and It was published!!!

Who is Going to Teach Nevada’s Children?
Will Nevada run the risk of denying students a quality education?



At what point will it become clear to state legislators that education is the key to this economy? My children are already left behind and will continue down this path if the government does not wake up and put the same emphasis on education as they do on tourism, which is referred to as the spirit of Nevada.

New to the Nevada area and with two children, I am forced to ask the question of “Who’s going to teach the true spirit? Do I now reside in a state where education is considered somehow inferior to tourism? Why is tourism and ways to attract tourists a high priority?

On Saturday, March 6, approximately 42 students showed up for a four- hour long reading and writing Boot Camp Proficiency tutoring sessions at Las Vegas High School. Boot Camp Proficiency is a necessity that students will probably lose if Nevada decides that programs like this are not needed. Where is the rainy day fund for education?

“Because of the economy students are leaving the private schools and now the public schools are becoming overcrowded,” said Stacey Watson, Educator and Tutor. “Because they are used to being high achievers, their parents may not be able to find money to pay for tuition but they will find the money for tutoring.” How many students will be forced to find a tutor after the budget cuts and not because they need the extra help but for a simple education?

With budget cuts comes a hit to teachers and students morale. Education should be viewed as a mechanism to exemplify the abilities, the spirit and qualities of both the teacher and the student, but if the state makes cuts in education then what other platform will students have to exemplify their abilities and their spirit?

Jill Leone has been teaching for more than 20 years and it does not stop there. She is a tutor; and she supports Las Vegas High School as a School Improvement and Northwest Accreditation team member and New Teacher Mentor. If this type of dedication to education is cut, again I ask the question “who’s going to teach”?

Leone is preparing the students at LVHS to pass the writing proficiency exam, an exam that is a degree requirement. She engages the students by asking questions in both English and Spanish for those students that may not understand it in English. She refers to the students as ladies and gentlemen and uses powerful and encouraging word diction as she speaks.

What are some of the reasons the students do not pass the proficiency exam? Leone said “Because they are second language learners.” Who’s going to teach? It is evident that Leone is comfortable with teaching and has a love for her students. Can you imagine her in any other profession?

Is it clear to state officials that in order for the gaming and hotel industry to attract quality employees they need to be educated, but what happens when cuts and or funding to education happen and we lose the teachers like Leone or tutors like Watson? Who’s left to educate those students to fill the open job positions in this industry?

Do Nevada state officials care if they do not produce responsible and productive citizens? What are my options as a parent if dedicated teachers and or our educational programs are cut? As parents and educators we need to fight for the spirit of our children. There needs to be more than 600 people who come out to these town hall meetings or special session hearings, power is in numbers but 600 people will never be heard at it is not even one percent of the population that resides in Nevada.

As parents and guardians we owe it to our children to complete the Clark County School District Parent Survey for more information on this issue please go to: www.ccsd.net/parentsurvey/ let us make our voices heard.



-Melva Valentine

This entry was posted on Wednesday, May 5th, 2010 at 1:46 pm.
Categories: News.

Cinco De Mayo

Tacos & Tequila......

Megamillions!

Let's pray that I win megamillions so that I am able to surround myself with better people..

I should have bet on the Kentucky Derby!

This weekend, I should have been home studying for the three exams I have today, and on Wednesday. But not me I was out getting crapped on by Crows, placing bets on a man who didn't stand a chance Mosley, and playing the slot machines when I know for a fact that I have gaming issues, I should have put my money on the KY Derby my odds of picking a winner would have been fruitful.

What the hell is wrong with me? Nothing, just enjoying life as I should. I miss the heck out of Boston but I am definately enjoying a better quality of life here in Vegas. I wish desperately that you could share this experience with me, but you have other plans and desires in Boston.

I am sorry that you do not have drinking water. Look on the brightside you have life and I know you are grateful for that. I hope you had a great weekend...

Mosley, are you upset?

So I had been drinking Tequila sunrise's and placed my money on Mosley, but, but, I wasn't that intoxicated because I managed to put some K.O. bets on Mayweather. Sad thing about it though I like many other was unable to collect. I should have relized my luck was chnaged yesterday when that freaking crow decided to shyt on me. In all my days in this world I avoided being shyted on by those Boston pigeons and I get to Vegas and get crappped on by a Freaking crow, while trying to darken up at the pool. What the hell?

Last night was very upsetting for alot of people. In order to make money on Mayweather you had to put up $380 just to get $100 as Mosley was +$280, the sad part about it because of the unanimous decision not too many people were able to collect.

AS for that Mosley the Tequila in me wanted to see him and get in the ring to show him what I learned in Freaking Boxing 101, how to JAB, and FOLLOW-THROUGH. What the freak was that Mosley? Better yet I think you should see me before you go back to California and give me my money back. How can you allow Mayweather to get into your head like that, clearly you are not a strong fighter. I'm available to train your son (even with my torn shoulder) and I won't even charge you that much.

Drinking?

You know it is time to seek help (A.A.) when someone has to put you in a wheelchair to take you out of the club at 2:00am and the club does not close until 4:30am.

Why do those folks drink until they can no longer function, what is wrong with that picture? It is hilarious to see them drunk or should I say perform.

Who the freak said???

Who said only cactus can live and grow in the desert, did you forget about those freaking WEEDS? We spent All day pulling weeds...

Who said local politicians are least influential, well good for them because the politicians in Las Vegas are not only less influential but they are hilarious. It is like watching an on-going comedy skit only thing the effects are poor and only beneficial to the polticians oh and the tourists only. How much more of Vegas can I take?

Is there something wrong with this picture???

Arizona passes law authorizing police officers to stop suspected illegal immigrants and demand proof of citizenship. Is this the 2010 version of Racial Profiling?

Malcolm X's assassin is paroled..

An Alabama Republican's campaign slogan "We speak English, Learn It" What the hell? Are you really forcing me to assimilate, how about not voting him into office...

What I cannot understand is why I haven't really considered running for a political office....Clearly the government is out of control and I would fit right in this environment....

On a softer note please ladies remember to get your feet done when wearing open toe shoes or flip flops. Better yet please wear sandals that does not require the toes to overlap the tops of the shoe. Its disgusting use some baby oil if you can not make in to get your feet done...

Overweight...What the hell?

I read a freelance article yesterday that basically stated I’m overweight because I do not consume enough fruit and fiber in my diet and that mealtime is always on my mind…..what the hell?

All this time I equated my fatness as a hand me down from my mother…To learn that this overweight thing is all in my mind is a good I think because now I can focus my thoughts on being a size smaller than the universe.

I swear I will do my best to put my fork down; hell to be honest I thought I was three sizes smaller from the effects of this economy… I’m going to add the words halt to my vocabulary HUNGRY, ANGRY, LONELY, and TIRED.

Do I really have a problem with my weight or am I allowing society yet again to dictate how I am supposed to look?

Someone please make me understand....

Why Hugh Hefner donated $900,0000 to save the Hollywood sign when the education system is suffering, better yet why not donate the money to stimulate the economy?

Why Eve had to go against God's will and I suffer monthly for the actions of a woman I never even met?

Why am I forced to work 40 hours a week at a job I hate to make money that does not even make a dent in the debt I have accumulated?

Why is the education system in the state of Nevada somewhat inferior to tourism?

Why do children believe that they have the answers to everything?

Why are most men stuck on STUPID?

If I continue down this path.......

Good Morning Heartache?

Monday always seems to be the hardest day of the week. Just back from a wonderful weekend and here is Monday. You have to pull yourself out of the bed to get ready to go to work (well for some of us). Oh the thought of what to fix for dinner? Monday blues....blah, blah, blah.

On the other hand you can look at Monday as another day for giving Thanks. Thank you Lord for blessing me and allowing me to be able to wake up and experience the Monday Blues.....

Never loose sight of the little things.....

It's Sunday god's day!!!

Where are you and what you doing?

An evening with my husband.....

Yesterday, I was beyond homesick missing Boston and my daughters. My husband decided to cheer me up. He said "let's go to dinner" not really wanting to leave the house buy after a few games of some pool, I manged to get it together and said what the hell.

We went to the Hilton were we had dinner at Benihanas, a show called Voices, starring Lani Misalucha. I was blown away by her three-octave vocal range, beautiful a must see, and some gambling. Of course, my husband (like always)was the big winner I'm still not sure why I visit the casinos.

He cheered me up although I still am homesick I am able to leave the house today and probably tomorrow (maybe not still have homework). Thanks John.

Drive-in Movies???

When was the last time you and your family went to a Drive-in movie?

Butt????

After a long day at school, I arrive home and the first thing I did was turn on the television. Not really focused but I can hear them talking about Kim Kardashian and "America's National Treasure." What?? I walked into the kitchen and I heard the announcer mention something the word Australia. I finished up, I walked over to the couch, to sit down, still not really focused and all of a sudden I realized I am watching TMZ. This particular episode is featuring Kim Kardashian while on the set of a talk show (in Australia) and the female host happens to grab her butt (she asked Kim before she grabbed it). What???? Why is this reportable-- I thought? There were questions about her butt's firmness, if it jiggled, but the female host equated her butt to a "waterbomb".

Harvey Levin asked "What is America coming to?" Kim is in Australia as pointed out by the announcer and he states "Kim Kardashian's butt is as American as baseball or Apple pie." I laughed so hard because if you know me then you will agree that my "butt" is beyond American it encompasses the universe. Can I get on tv with my "butt" please, it jiggles and it's definately bigger than the American National Treasure.

Daughters

Why do mother and daughter relationship fail? Do the daughter hate the mother? As mothers we do everything to ensure that our children are happy and successful. What is it about a daughter that makes them blind to the ways of their mother?

Can we talk about everything?

Today, I'd like to talk about the Wii system: Sure it is supposed to be fun and interactive but if you are like me and you have created a Mii character, you may have been somewhat intimidated or better yet your self-esteem may have been diminished after completing the fitness test. Here I thought I have this new toy and I am going to get in shape while doing something I like, WHAT not according to my Mii character. I was told you are OBESE. Has anyone had that experience --or was it just me?